Homework. I need to do it.
Procrastination likes me, I swear..
But, anyways. Thanks to you guys who have recently watched me. I will
thank you all individually..
Things aren't so good lately.
I know! I complain too much, and I'm sorry. I try not to. But I need somewhere to vent.. And I don't like doing it on Facebook so I run to you guys.
I'm really stressed from school. And I feel like there's something wrong with me. (Not like an illness or anything) But I seem to be putting a lot of people off and annoying people recently..
Plus I've been more irritable. I'm getting angry really easily.
I try to be happy at school. At least I see my friends at school.
But I'm starting to get really.. I don't exactly know. Lonely. I don't know what to do with myself.
My emotions are all over the place. I've always been an easy crier. But.. Recently the slightest memory or something sends me into a fit. I had to go in my closet last week to cry to myself because I was embarrassed.
And.. I was told that one of my old friends tried/was having thoughts of suicide. Not an easy thing to deal with. I wrote her a letter.. I don't know if she got it. If she read it. If she will respond or talk to me. She might not be ready. But her mom sent out an e-mail and now she's on high-alert suicide watch.
My older half-sister's mom committed suicide.
I don't want to see how it feels to have someone close to you commit suicide. I just feel kind of fragile right now.
I know a few of you have made some requests from me but I am sorry that I don't think I can do that now.
I don't really feel ready to do art.. I am losing motivation.
Sorry for so many numerous delayed responses to comments, etc. but I think that delay is going to go on even more now. I can't do it right now.
I need a hug. I want to hug someone but I still feel kind of empty.
I'm just going through the motions again.
Thanks to all of you who wished me an early happy birthday. I really appreciate it.
Here's to later.