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Off to homework

Sun Feb 10, 2013, 7:44 PM
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: Crowd Surf Off a Cliff
Homework. I need to do it.
Procrastination likes me, I swear..

But, anyways. Thanks to you guys who have recently watched me. I will thank you all individually..
Things aren't so good lately.
I know! I complain too much, and I'm sorry. I try not to. But I need somewhere to vent.. And I don't like doing it on Facebook so I run to you guys.

I'm really stressed from school. And I feel like there's something wrong with me. (Not like an illness or anything) But I seem to be putting a lot of people off and annoying people recently..

Plus I've been more irritable. I'm getting angry really easily.

I try to be happy at school. At least I see my friends at school.

But I'm starting to get really.. I don't exactly know. Lonely. I don't know what to do with myself.

My emotions are all over the place. I've always been an easy crier. But.. Recently the slightest memory or something sends me into a fit. I had to go in my closet last week to cry to myself because I was embarrassed.

And.. I was told that one of my old friends tried/was having thoughts of suicide. Not an easy thing to deal with. I wrote her a letter.. I don't know if she got it. If she read it. If she will respond or talk to me. She might not be ready. But her mom sent out an e-mail and now she's on high-alert suicide watch.

My older half-sister's mom committed suicide.

I don't want to see how it feels to have someone close to you commit suicide. I just feel kind of fragile right now.

I know a few of you have made some requests from me but I am sorry that I don't think I can do that now.
I don't really feel ready to do art.. I am losing motivation.

Sorry for so many numerous delayed responses to comments, etc. but I think that delay is going to go on even more now. I can't do it right now.

I need a hug. I want to hug someone but I still feel kind of empty.
I'm just going through the motions again.

Thanks to all of you who wished me an early happy birthday. I really appreciate it. :)

Here's to later.

~DTN

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:iconshimasteam2112:
Dev, if you need a hug, I'm always here for you! I understand your pain (I'm failing one of my classes now, HA) and everyone is starting to get on my nerves too (especially onii-chan, UGH), so don't feel bad!
At least you don't have rehearsal EVERYDAY until 6:00 PM for the next three weeks, right? :D
You're too awesome to be depressed! Go and watch Anohana or something and be happy! I hate seeing you upset!
Cheer up, okay? If you ever need someone to talk to, come find me, kay? :)
You're amazing! Don't forget it!
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:icondevanthenoob:
Thank you so much ;u;
(As you can see, I'm very SLOW at responding.)
But I know what you mean. TGISB!
Thank goodness it's Spring Break!
:iconluvluvplz:
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:iconkuraibreak:
~KuraiBreak Feb 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Does an internet hug count? I'm sorry there isn't really any way I can help you, but... I hope you get better soon?

And happy early birthday! (How did I forget OTL)
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:icondevanthenoob:
Yes, it does! ^-^ Thank you very much for your support, it means a lot!

And thanks ;D It's no trouble at all
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