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Hi again.
Um. I don't really know what to say. It's weird. Going through my inbox I have over 500 messages/comments/etc.
And I'm seeing some stuff I've commented or said and it's so weird to see.
I don't even remember me. I don't remember what I was like.
Am I making sense? Probably not.
Ah, yeah. I feel kind of more dead. Like I see all these comments I've made and written and messages and whatnot and I sound so energetic and free (I sound stupid now) and like, all these emoticons and plz's.
I don't even remember hardly any plz's. Let me try one... Uh... 
I don't even know if that will work. It was hard for me to type that. I couldn't remember how to type plz's. I wonder if that will even work.
Yeah that's about it with me.
I feel dead, though, kind of.
Brain dead. Like numb. Like I can't type all happy. Like how my comments used to sound... or at least how they look. The smiley faces and gifs I don't know.
And I'm not sad. I'm not.
I don't think. I think I'm fine. I just feel kind of empty and I can't remember what I'm like.
Sorry wow this has been a bit of a ramble, huh?

Okay. I'll stop now. I'm driving myself insane. I kind of feel like crying right now. I don't know why. Just crying.
My heart feels like it hurts, like something sad happened but I can't remember anything bad happening.
I feel nervous. I've been having a lot of anxiety issues lately.
Also I'm getting the bad habit of not eating right again. And by not eating right I don't mean not eating healthy I mean like not hardly eating at all.
I've lost six pounds. In about a month.
Is that weird? Abnormal?
I don't know. I don't know statistics.
Maybe it's fine.
Maybe I'm fine.
Will anyone see this? I don't even know.

Now I'll really stop before everyone hates me.
Bye then.

  • Mood: Anxious
  • Reading: The Hobbit
  • Eating: Nothing.
  • Drinking: Nothing.
Shimasteam2112 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I hope you feel better Dev! Don't worry, it's just a phase. You'll get over it, I'm sure ^_^
Maybe you feel out of it 'cause it's winter break? I mean, I lose track of the days, and then I just stare at the ceiling boredly for hours...
I hate to admit it, but I'm starting to miss school a little. But as soon as I'm back, I'll hate it and want it to be break again XD

What are your off periods? I hope we can hang out more next semester...
Feel better, okay? We've all been like this before :D
DragonWolfOtaku Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2014
:hug: Perhaps winter break is getting long. But don't neglect your health! Why don't you go out to one of your favorite stores or restaurant? I find that helps me :)
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