Um. I don't really know what to say. It's weird. Going through my inbox I have over 500 messages/comments/etc.
And I'm seeing some stuff I've commented or said and it's so weird to see.
I don't even remember me. I don't remember what I was like.
Am I making sense? Probably not.
Ah, yeah. I feel kind of more dead. Like I see all these comments I've made and written and messages and whatnot and I sound so energetic and free (I sound stupid now) and like, all these emoticons and plz's.
I don't even remember hardly any plz's. Let me try one... Uh...
I don't even know if that will work. It was hard for me to type that. I couldn't remember how to type plz's. I wonder if that will even work.
Yeah that's about it with me.
I feel dead, though, kind of.
Brain dead. Like numb. Like I can't type all happy. Like how my comments used to sound... or at least how they look. The smiley faces and gifs I don't know.
And I'm not sad. I'm not.
I don't think. I think I'm fine. I just feel kind of empty and I can't remember what I'm like.
Sorry wow this has been a bit of a ramble, huh?
Okay. I'll stop now. I'm driving myself insane. I kind of feel like crying right now. I don't know why. Just crying.
My heart feels like it hurts, like something sad happened but I can't remember anything bad happening.
I feel nervous. I've been having a lot of anxiety issues lately.
Also I'm getting the bad habit of not eating right again. And by not eating right I don't mean not eating healthy I mean like not hardly eating at all.
I've lost six pounds. In about a month.
Is that weird? Abnormal?
I don't know. I don't know statistics.
Maybe it's fine.
Maybe I'm fine.
Will anyone see this? I don't even know.
Now I'll really stop before everyone hates me.